I have been reading my fellow bloggers blogs and It has me thinking. Not that that isn’t all I seem to do lately. I sit and wonder if all of this crap that we go through just to have a baby is really worth it? One girl wrote about how she remembers what it was like going off the bcp and how fun it was TTC. And when you missed your period you would think omg we did it. I am pregnant. Except here I am two years later and still not baby. We have no sperm and have to use a donor. It was really hard for us just to decide to use a donor. After two IUI’s still no baby. Some of my fellow bloggers have done this like 8 times, and still they have no baby. Others are talking about IVF. Who has the cash to do that??? We have talked about doing IUI # 3. I am not sure if I want to. This whole thing has just taken over our lives. I guess I am just confused on if this is all going to be worth it. I watch shows that have the husband and wife in the delivery room. Once the baby is born they had it to the mother. I cry every time. I want that feeling so bad. But on the other hand I have been thinking about adoption.
I don’t know I guess I am just feeling really confused about some things. Just needed to vent it all out. Thanks for listening. I hope everyone is having a great holiday weekend. GO BIG RED!!!
